Disturbia~!!!!!!!

I cant stand it anymore..!

why you still want to disturb me..?!

you make me hate you so much!

i even dont wish to see you again!!

anymore..!!

forever!!!

cant you stop calling me everyday..?!!

one day 30 calls..!!!

are you insane..?!!

you call until my phone no batteries

and i almost want to smash my phone away..!!!

you knew that i block your phone call already..

and you still go find your friends to borrow their phone to call me..?!!!

what.. to force me to answer..!!

and different numbers i have to block all of them..?!!

you are crazy!!!!

and the worst is..

you even disturbing my friends..!!!

what ve they done to meet you this horrible guy!!!

i am sooo regret that i didnt listen to sis s advice..!!

how regret i am..!!!

because i treat you as my primary friend..

and you treat me like that..!

all girls just ignore whatever your call or sms or facebook..

except me..

how stupiak i am to treat you as my friend..

and you force me to do things and give up my everything because of this 'friend' word..!!

how horrible are you..!

you said you likes me..!!!

and you love me..!

NO!!

its not love!!

you didnt even know how to appreciate people give!

how you understand what is love!

you can see thats love through my previous post!!!

you just want a girl to accompany you..

because everyday of your life is boring..!!!

but my life is always busy!!!

and im not like you..and i wont accept..!

and now you are keep disturbing me..!!!

you know what..?

i really HATE you..!

you ruin my mood everyday..!!!

i never hate anyone like this..

until i know you !!!

ENOUGH!!!

GO AWAY!!!

GET LOST FROM MY WORLD!!!

i dont want to see you anymore!!!!

BECAUSE I HATE YOU!!

sorry for any rude words..(to blog not for relevant people)

just want to share out my anger and hatred..

feel better..

hoping he dont come to disturb me anymore..

i really cant stand it anymore..

i almost cry out..

FIN

Fall in love..? @@

i fall in love with him..?

i dont know..

but suddenly i seem so care about him..

after knew that he likes me for a long time..

i seem start to notice him recently..

and figure it myself..

he really do care about me when we re talking or sms or any action he do for me..

he s such an unpredictable person..

how hard i found that he likes me you know..?!!

walao leh~~==ll

or maybe i am stupiak..?

issshh~!

but well..

actually he s really a nice guy..

i really can put a hundred of my hearts into him if im his gf..

he s very kind..and honest guy..

how to say..?

ermm..

诚心兼老实。。

hahas..

i never met a guy like that..

i ve wondering..

'she' will be very blessed if 'she' has a bf such like this..

if the 'she' was me,

how happy i have such a nice bf who almost extinct in this world!

im not to exaggerate my words..

but its true..

he really is..

but i have never expect that he likes me..

and its already a few months ago..!

Last time..

i saw XX took a small knife and put it on ZZ s hand..

try to scare him..? or something..?

but he didnt feel scare at all..@@

maybe he think XX wont hurt him..

but i am the one who scare..!

i automatically rise up my hand to touch XX s hand..

try to stop him to do that..

because it may hurt ZZ..

and suddenly my mind asked me:

'what am i doing..?'

then i only quickly say an excuse that its dangerous for playing this..

i know its a weird excuse..

and so XX..

but what i can say..

i really dont know how to tell a lie in such a emergency situation..!

and before that..

KK ask me to play games with him..

but i rejected..

then suddenly KK did something that make ZZ have a big reaction..

that time i was stared at KK..

seemed try to stop KK to do that with my eyes contact aggressively..

and KK made a 'yam yam' smiling face..

i guess he knew something...?

omg..!!!

what have i done..?!!

what happen...?!!!

issshhh!!!

what am i doing..?!

i really..fall in love with him..?

somebody answer me..?!

har har~~~

aiyaiyai~

what should i do..?!!!

speechless...~.~

i think i do fall in love...@@!!!!!

...........isshhh!!

FIN

20 November 2010~ gurney~pasar malam~starlight~

went to hui ming s house before going to gurney~

i have no idea why she want to cover this..@@

hahas..

wow..ugly..

tar dar~

i straighten my hair back..

tit tit i miss you..

you make me feel my hair getting longer..

==ll

okay stop it..

and here s hui ming..

busy doing makeup..

After eating 'chopper board'~

^^V

After on,

hui ming s bf,ah hooi came to fetch me to go to pasar malam where near to grandma s house..

But sis called me when reach there no longer..

to ask me go out night...

hehehe~

of course i do..

since that day s friday!~

lala.

didnt take any pic st starlight..

lazzzzzzyy...~

anyway just having fun at there..

and know another three guys at there..

weird..@@

FIN

To all people who think study s the best in the world..

If you think like that,

then you re really an ignorant person..

People who did not study well or educated..

they are useless..

If you think like that,

mostly the whole world are beggars..

and i will say you will be the poorest beggar among them..

you think..?

If everyone try their best to do everything even they didnt educate..

they will succeed..

or even more than you even you study so well..

future cant hold by everyone..

you maybe just a sale girl or waiter even you ve graduated from college or uni..

people who never study college or uni maybe will become a billionaire..

读书不是大嗮的。。

你以为读书就是全世界啊。。？

唔好酱天真啦。。

会笑死人大牙的啊。。

FIN

I m really mad..but i have to pretend..

Sometimes i ask myself..

why i have to force myself not to angry to you all..?

because i know you are too straight ..

until even you also dont know the most basic respect and manners..

and i keep not to say anything..

not to make you do correction to your attitude..

am i doing right..?

or maybe because i know your stubborn..?

and arguement will happen..?

you seem become more serious in your personality..

I have heard another friend told me something..

actually you all no need to hide to me..

im okay with that..

i ALWAYS okay with anything..

just want you all dont hide things from me or lie to me..

because i hate it..

im not no temper at all..

at least i have feeling..

dont you all respect and stop to ignore my feeling..?

why you all want to treat me like this..?

what have i done anything wrong to you all..?

i know i will leave one day..

so i force myself not to angry or even argue with you all..

thus i just write at here..

whatever you saw it or not..

i dont care..

i got my right..

to realise my anger and pressure in my blog..

and you dont have to ask me anything..

or do anything..

i wont say anything..

you know and understand what you doing better if compare to ask me any shit questions..

i always try not to believe..

when people told me that..

once you know your friends at sem 1..

and mostly you will break group with them at sem 2..

because all your friends pattern and real personality come out...

i really not believe it..

but now..

i do..

(sign)

im really mad..

but nevermind..

i will leave..

and i wont see you all again..

i hope too..

FIN