I m really mad..but i have to pretend..

Sometimes i ask myself..

why i have to force myself not to angry to you all..?

because i know you are too straight ..

until even you also dont know the most basic respect and manners..

and i keep not to say anything..

not to make you do correction to your attitude..

am i doing right..?

or maybe because i know your stubborn..?

and arguement will happen..?

you seem become more serious in your personality..

I have heard another friend told me something..

actually you all no need to hide to me..

im okay with that..

i ALWAYS okay with anything..

just want you all dont hide things from me or lie to me..

because i hate it..

im not no temper at all..

at least i have feeling..

dont you all respect and stop to ignore my feeling..?

why you all want to treat me like this..?

what have i done anything wrong to you all..?

i know i will leave one day..

so i force myself not to angry or even argue with you all..

thus i just write at here..

whatever you saw it or not..

i dont care..

i got my right..

to realise my anger and pressure in my blog..

and you dont have to ask me anything..

or do anything..

i wont say anything..

you know and understand what you doing better if compare to ask me any shit questions..

i always try not to believe..

when people told me that..

once you know your friends at sem 1..

and mostly you will break group with them at sem 2..

because all your friends pattern and real personality come out...

i really not believe it..

but now..

i do..

(sign)

im really mad..

but nevermind..

i will leave..

and i wont see you all again..

i hope too..

FIN